January 30, 2012

• reminders

  There are things I need to be reminded of from time to time. Mostly they tend to be things that just get overlooked, the simple things that tend to get shoved to the back of my mind in the daily, hmmm... my first thought was (battle) but life isn't really a battle, not even a struggle, most of the time, that is. It's not a grind either. So, why do I keep getting bogged down? Why do I tend to let little things keep me from enjoying or recognizing the things that matter?

  I know that in the last year and a half I've been dealing with complications due to diabetes. In my own myopic way I was shoving the reality to the back of my mind, you know, it's just pain, I can deal with it. So, I dealt with it. I won't go into details, it isn't necessary, but it took some one I know asking me how to deal with their own issues for me to get off my butt and get the help I needed. So, now, things are better on that front. Yeah, better, the pain issues aren't gone, I still have bad days, but the new medications and therapies make then an exception, not the rule. Much better... much.

  It took being reminded for me to deal with something I should have done before.

  There have been other reminders as well, ones that have been, well, not forcing me, but pushing me all the same, to take action on some other issues. Some are easy, others, not so much, but what intrigues me is how these reminders seem to fall into place, one leading to the next.

  Now, I'm stuck for words... another issue, I guess, but one that sits much closer to my heart.

  I miss you... the insight you brought me, the pleasure of just talking, the hope of real friendship... so much more... all gone in a moment.

  Damn...

  Damn...

  *sigh*

  Yes, well, reminders...

  Some are welcome. lol... I guess all of them are, maybe. Even those that bring their own kind of pain. Reminders of things that maybe need to be put aside, dealt with, or re-examined. Or, just maybe, things that need to be grasped again and find out once and for all if they can become reality instead of dream.

  It will be interesting to see where things lead me...

   

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