December 3, 2012

• An idea...

  One of my passions has been writing, it's also one of my daemons.

  The biggest problem I've always had as a writer has been getting past the initial spurt of energy, that surge that fills me and gets the first pages down. Some times that energy will keep me going for days,  other times it sputters and fades in just a few short hours. And then I find myself sitting at the keyboard, full of ideas, but lacking the will to put them down on the page. Part of it is that age old nemesis called self doubt, part of it is not knowing where to go next and part is wondering if I do make the effort, will anyone ever read it, and of course like it.

  Back in the days when I was in college and had weekly deadlines for my writing class I could churn out the pages, not always easily, but I could get at least a rough draft ready for the next class. Now I'll spend several hours working through an idea in my head but never manage to get even some of it down. It's never been the ideas that has stumped me. Even in the worst of my writers block moments the ideas are there, just not the ability to take them from my mind and put them on the screen.

  I guess what I'm saying here is that I'm looking for some way to change my habits, some way to give me a deadline to shoot for that doesn't seem to be just a fantasy in my own mind. I know that there are some out there who have read some of my work, and maybe some who might want to give it a try. If there are, and you're willing to help give me that sense of challenge to help get me moving, I'd like to hear from you.

  For any of you that do know my work, pick something and I'll go back to work. If you haven't read anything of mine just ask and I'll send you something.

  I will keep working on it on my own, but I know my history, all the fits and starts that fizzle out. I know it is habit as much as anything, but I'm notsure this is a habit I can change on my own.

  • 12:56 pm
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